Nightmares

 I've started to hate going to sleep.

That is a strange thing to say because I used to think of sleep as something neutral, or even comforting. You get tired, you go to bed, you close your eyes, and for a few hours you don't have to do anything. You don't have to be productive or think about everything that is going on in your life. You just rest. Lately, though, sleep has become something I am genuinely afraid of.

I Thought the Future Would Be Different

 Sometimes I think about the future more than I should.

Not in the way people usually mean when they ask where I see myself in five or ten years. I don't imagine a career, a house, or even a specific version of my life. I never really did. But whatever I imagined adulthood would be, it certainly wasn't this.